Many people have asked me, “How are you doing?” Frankly, that is a very hard question to answer. It really depends on which moment one asks, but let me give you a little update.
It has been just over a month since Christopher so suddenly left us. It seems like yesterday.
There is a hole in the world and an even bigger one in our hearts for Christopher! I can so imagine him sitting with us, talking and laughing.
The reason this is harder is that every day that goes by, I am further from Christopher.
I miss him.
I miss his voice, his hair. I miss the lines on his face, his walk. All I have now are memories, photos, and a few videos.
I hate using the term, “Christopher died.” I don’t like using the word, and I choke up when I type it.
Yes, he died in one sense, but in a very real sense—an even more real sense—he is alive! More alive than he has ever been. More alive than I am right now.
Jesus said, “He who believes in me, though he may die, he shall live. And whoever lives and believes in me shall never die” (John 11:25-26 NKJV).
Christopher Laurie is alive.
Anyway, as I was saying, before Christopher went to be with the Lord, I did not see him for almost a week before. He was out of town with his family.
So it has been well over a month since we last spoke. That is a long time, because we communicated every single day for the most part.
Yes, it’s sad, because every day I am further from my last time with my son. But then again, every day I am also closer! Closer to the day when I will be reunited with him in heaven.
As David said after the death of his son, “I will go to him, but he will not return to me” (2 Samuel 12:23 NIV).
So, those are some of my honest, real-time thoughts from the valley. God is faithful, and He will walk with us through it, just as He is walking with you through your valley.
Thanks again for your prayers and thoughtful words.
God bless you,